The trailer for the movie "ADAM" was on the DVD for another movie that I had rented. I didn't forget about the movie, but I did try to be "normal" for a while and not search for it like a rabid animal. The trailer just put it right back on the top of the in box.
J claims that he has all sorts of movie places on standby to e-mail him when it comes out on DVD, but somehow, and I do believe him on this one, I had to find it.
A little over 30 minutes and one crappy, bogus IQ quiz later, I was watching a slightly pixelated ADAM on my laptop. Ironically, the quiz got me nowhere...It asked for my cell number after.
I wouldn't wake J to watch the movie with me because I was in fear of a couple of things:
1. If the trailer made me cry, what would the movie do....
2. Would he make some insensitive comment about the main character that would make me feel even more alienated in my own world?
For 90 minutes I held my breath and watched the main character, a 29 year old man with Asperger's very much like mine, lurch through a relationship, be awkward and in pain, and pray that my time with Adam wasn't interrupted by J. And it wasn't.
When J finally woke up and came downstairs it took a while for me to tell him that I watched it. When I tried to explain the quality of it and how I found it... He didn't listen. As usual.
When do you know that the movie is over? When the audience stands up and leaves.
A movie came out over the summer and I saw the trailer with J while we were watching a video. It's called Adam. It's about a guy with Asperger's and his struggles with trying to fit in and the relationship that he's trying to begin.
I have to say, it was painful to watch the few minutes of the trailer. Like a trainwreck....Or an execution. I really didn't want to look, but I wanted to see what my own experiences and quirks look like. Now I can't find the movie ANYWHERE!!!!
I figured that since we saw the trailer on a DVD preview that logic would dictate that it was out on DVD, right? Nope.
I reeeeeaaaaallllly don't want to see this in the theater. Being that uncomfortable in my own basement leads me to believe that I will really be in pain in public.
So, I am off to find this film close by, and then see if I can subtley medicate beforehand and still be able to watch with comprehension.
